Saturday, August 21, 2010
Thursday, August 19, 2010
ഇനി ഞാന്‍ ഉണരട്ടെ
അരവിന്ദ് പറഞ്ഞാ ഞാന്‍ അറിയുന്നെ ഇങ്ങനേയും ബ്ലോഗില്‍ ടൈപ്പ് ചെയ്യാം എന്ന്. മലയാളം എന്റെ പ്രിയ ഭാഷ ആണ്. തിരിഞ്ഞു നോക്കുമ്പോള്‍ സ്കൂള്‍ മതിലുകള്‍ക്കുള്ളില്‍ എവിടേയോ മലയാളത്തെ സ്നേഹിച്ചിരുന്ന ഒരു അഖിലേഷ് നെ എനിക്ക് പരിചയം ഉണ്ട് . ഇടശേരിയുടെ "പള്ളികുടതിലീയ്കു വീണ്ടും " വായിച്ചു കണ്ണ് നിറഞ്ഞ ആളാണ് ടിയാന് . എന്നാല്‍ കയിഞ്ഞ നാള്‍ അക്ഷര മാല എയുതിയപ്പോയാണ് ക ഖ ഗ . ഇത്രോം കയിഞ്ഞു എന്താണ് വരുന്നതെന്ന് മറന്നുപോയെന്ന സത്യം മനസിലായത് . മനസ്സില്‍ തട്ടിയത് മറക്കാന്‍ മനസ് പഠിപ്പിച്ചത് ടിയാന് പലപോയും ഉപകരിചിട്ടുന്ടെങ്കിലും , ഇത് ഭാഷയോട് താന്‍ കാണിച്ച ഏറ്റവും വലിയ അവഹേളനം ആണെന്നുള്ള അറിവ് ടിയാന് ഒരു നട്ടുച്ച നേരത്തിനു ബോധ്യം ആയി . ഒരു പേപ്പര്‍ എടുത്തു എയുതി തുടങ്ങി . ഫോട്ടോ എടുത്തു ബ്ലോഗില്‍ ഇടാം . പക്ഷെ എന്തെയുതും . വര്‍ഷങ്ങളായി പ്രൂഫുകളും കണക്കുകുടലുകളും മാത്രമായി പരിചയിച്ചു കട്ടന്‍ തറ പോലെ ഉറച്ചിരിക്കുന്നു മനസ്സില്‍ സാഹിത്യത്തിന്‍റെ വിത്തുകള്‍ വളരാന്‍ പ്രയാസം തന്നെ. അല്ലെങ്കില്‍ തന്നെ ആര്‍ക് വേണം വിലയിടാനും , കുട്ടികിയിക്കാനും പറ്റാത്ത സ്നേഹവും വികാര വായ്പുകളും .
ആദ്യം കരുതി വെണ്ണചന്ദ്രികയ്ക് നിറം കുടുമാറുള്ള അവളുടെ ആ പുഞ്ചിരിയെപറ്റി എയുതാം എന്ന് . പിന്നെ ഭാവിയില്‍ അതെ ചൊല്ലി ഉണ്ടായേക്കാവുന്ന വിവാദങ്ങളെ ഓര്‍ത്തു ഞാന്‍ മാറ്റി വച്ചു . പിന്നെ കരുതി ഒരു ചെറു കഥ എയുതം എന്ന്. ചെറുകഥയുടെ ആദ്യത്തെ വരികള്‍ എയുതി .കഥയുടെ പേര് ........ അതവിടെ ഇരിക്കട്ടെ .
CET പഠിപ്പിച്ച ഒരു കാര്യമാണ് . ബുദ്ധിയില്‍ നിന്ന് ചിന്ദിക്കുക . വളരെ ഉയരങ്ങളില്‍ എത്തി ചേരണം .
ഹൃദയം ഉറങ്ങിക്കോട്ടെ . പക്ഷെ ഉറക്കമല്ല എന്ന് അഭിനയിക്കണം . വെളുക്കെ ചിരിക്കണം കരച്ചില്‍ വരുമ്പോള്‍ . കരച്ചില്‍ നടിക്കണം ചിരി വരുമ്പോള്‍ . സഹദാപിക്കണം. നമുക്ക് നഷ്ടം വാകുകള്‍ മാത്രം. ഞാന്‍ ഹൃദയത്തോട് പറഞ്ഞു "മറ്റൊരു സ്വപ്ന ലോകം നിനക്കുണ്ട്‌ . ഇവിടെ ഉറങ്ങി അവിടെ ഉണരണം നീ . മുരിവുകലെല്പിക്കാന്‍ മുള്ളുകളില്ലാത്ത അക്ഷരങ്ങളുടെ സ്വപ്ന ലോകം . ഹൃദയം എന്നോട് നിറ കണ്ണുകളോടെ പറഞ്ഞു "ജീവന്റെ നേരിയ തുടിപ്പ് ബാക്കി ഉണ്ട് . ജീവിക്കാന്‍ കൊതിയും ഉണ്ട് . എവിടെ എങ്കിലും .................ഇനി ഞാന്‍ ഉണരട്ടെ ..
ആദ്യം കരുതി വെണ്ണചന്ദ്രികയ്ക് നിറം കുടുമാറുള്ള അവളുടെ ആ പുഞ്ചിരിയെപറ്റി എയുതാം എന്ന് . പിന്നെ ഭാവിയില്‍ അതെ ചൊല്ലി ഉണ്ടായേക്കാവുന്ന വിവാദങ്ങളെ ഓര്‍ത്തു ഞാന്‍ മാറ്റി വച്ചു . പിന്നെ കരുതി ഒരു ചെറു കഥ എയുതം എന്ന്. ചെറുകഥയുടെ ആദ്യത്തെ വരികള്‍ എയുതി .കഥയുടെ പേര് ........ അതവിടെ ഇരിക്കട്ടെ .
CET പഠിപ്പിച്ച ഒരു കാര്യമാണ് . ബുദ്ധിയില്‍ നിന്ന് ചിന്ദിക്കുക . വളരെ ഉയരങ്ങളില്‍ എത്തി ചേരണം .
ഹൃദയം ഉറങ്ങിക്കോട്ടെ . പക്ഷെ ഉറക്കമല്ല എന്ന് അഭിനയിക്കണം . വെളുക്കെ ചിരിക്കണം കരച്ചില്‍ വരുമ്പോള്‍ . കരച്ചില്‍ നടിക്കണം ചിരി വരുമ്പോള്‍ . സഹദാപിക്കണം. നമുക്ക് നഷ്ടം വാകുകള്‍ മാത്രം. ഞാന്‍ ഹൃദയത്തോട് പറഞ്ഞു "മറ്റൊരു സ്വപ്ന ലോകം നിനക്കുണ്ട്‌ . ഇവിടെ ഉറങ്ങി അവിടെ ഉണരണം നീ . മുരിവുകലെല്പിക്കാന്‍ മുള്ളുകളില്ലാത്ത അക്ഷരങ്ങളുടെ സ്വപ്ന ലോകം . ഹൃദയം എന്നോട് നിറ കണ്ണുകളോടെ പറഞ്ഞു "ജീവന്റെ നേരിയ തുടിപ്പ് ബാക്കി ഉണ്ട് . ജീവിക്കാന്‍ കൊതിയും ഉണ്ട് . എവിടെ എങ്കിലും .................ഇനി ഞാന്‍ ഉണരട്ടെ ..
Monday, August 9, 2010
The sTory oF a Job Seeker .
Standing in front of CGPU block never made this much feel in the last four years. Around CGPU , I remember nothing other than asking a beautiful senior girl's secret of long hair in first year as a part of ragging session. (CET ragging often made much nostalgic memories ) . Since then when ever i passed CGPU i felt glimpses of her hair in my mind. Well .. Now things are different . Fourth year guys . Job seekers too. So come neat dressed . Attend Aptitude test GDs and interview. Blow up your talents . Say blabla blabla .. Get a Job . Be a Engineer . Er Akhilesh
First placement waves
The first Company visiting campus was the great IOC . Very high salaries . 100 liters of petrol per month . Due to my very very high GPA 's i was not even able to know whether the interviewers were black or white in complexion. Interviewers thought that civil department is a tire service of some womens only colleges. Guys rocked . In the end 3- 4 persons placed in IOC. Roumours are there that these IOC guys are planning ,which school they have to select to bring up their children as they have already settled their own life.
Btween you should know that the intelligent akhilesh told all. " I don't like IOC , I'm a communist , i wont entertain much luxuries " . The inner me retaliated .. "Yea da . Often grapes at heights are not so sweet "
Second waves "Mu sigma the unheard dream company "
Message came .... " all should register the mu sigma as dream company " . Truly saying I've not heard such a company even in mid noon till that day . How can i dream a company even with out hearing its name. Is these placements are also some kind of love . Dreaming with out knowing the name even. Dad told . Don't join analyst places. They will screw your future . I want to see you an Engineer. Not an analyst.I went with more confidence for aptitude test without any preperation. Out of 600 students who attended apti test ,140 were shortlisted. With out any hesitation i can tell you that i joined the majority gang. Not even short listed.
I phoned dad. "I kept your faith ."
he asked "How many one short listed "
"140"
" So you are not in 140. Ashamed of you."
Often these parents are quite diplomatic ones.
First PPT
Pre placement talks began. A young handsome guy came in and opened his laptop. (I always hated handsome guys .. They adds up to the competition ).A desktop pic came . A cute girl and a child beneath him. ( I've heard , at least 20 girls felt crush on him. Bad luck girls). Then a video was projected. I couldn't understand a single word . It was American assent . I too used to say that kind of English when dad at morning asked me some thing ,when I'm brushing my teeth.
Then the main person with a cute, but a little old girl came in. She was a little plummy but good. The main person was nothing but a teddy bear . He started with explaining what Mu Sigma is .. He started every single sentence with " some kind of... some kind of" . At last many doubts were asked. I've not even seen the cetians asking doubts even in a first year Graphics classes. I too tried to interact but the counteracting was not so good. So i told the inner me. Calm down man. This is not your piece of cake..
The journey of job seeking continues.. Will be back soon.......
First placement waves
The first Company visiting campus was the great IOC . Very high salaries . 100 liters of petrol per month . Due to my very very high GPA 's i was not even able to know whether the interviewers were black or white in complexion. Interviewers thought that civil department is a tire service of some womens only colleges. Guys rocked . In the end 3- 4 persons placed in IOC. Roumours are there that these IOC guys are planning ,which school they have to select to bring up their children as they have already settled their own life.
Btween you should know that the intelligent akhilesh told all. " I don't like IOC , I'm a communist , i wont entertain much luxuries " . The inner me retaliated .. "Yea da . Often grapes at heights are not so sweet "
Second waves "Mu sigma the unheard dream company "
Message came .... " all should register the mu sigma as dream company " . Truly saying I've not heard such a company even in mid noon till that day . How can i dream a company even with out hearing its name. Is these placements are also some kind of love . Dreaming with out knowing the name even. Dad told . Don't join analyst places. They will screw your future . I want to see you an Engineer. Not an analyst.I went with more confidence for aptitude test without any preperation. Out of 600 students who attended apti test ,140 were shortlisted. With out any hesitation i can tell you that i joined the majority gang. Not even short listed.
I phoned dad. "I kept your faith ."
he asked "How many one short listed "
"140"
" So you are not in 140. Ashamed of you."
Often these parents are quite diplomatic ones.
First PPT
Pre placement talks began. A young handsome guy came in and opened his laptop. (I always hated handsome guys .. They adds up to the competition ).A desktop pic came . A cute girl and a child beneath him. ( I've heard , at least 20 girls felt crush on him. Bad luck girls). Then a video was projected. I couldn't understand a single word . It was American assent . I too used to say that kind of English when dad at morning asked me some thing ,when I'm brushing my teeth.
Then the main person with a cute, but a little old girl came in. She was a little plummy but good. The main person was nothing but a teddy bear . He started with explaining what Mu Sigma is .. He started every single sentence with " some kind of... some kind of" . At last many doubts were asked. I've not even seen the cetians asking doubts even in a first year Graphics classes. I too tried to interact but the counteracting was not so good. So i told the inner me. Calm down man. This is not your piece of cake..
The journey of job seeking continues.. Will be back soon.......
Sunday, May 16, 2010
On the verge of a " Engineer"
S6 Exams are over ..
Nothing to do these days. I thought of writing a whole college story. I can't write it now. One more year there. The best part may be coming on the next year (I'm very optimistic and I'm too lazy to put ma butt over chair to write the whole stuff ). College days are on its climax scenes. The most best experiences of life had occurred in these corridors . But for sure , these corridors won't be ours to find our shelter from next summer's sun stroke . We will change our tag from cetians to alumni..From students to employees. Our college becomes our Alma mater. Class rooms where we made comments during lecturing , the bus bay where i got ragged, the pancharakad where i got birthday bumps ,the campus where i got crush( glup no body knows . . I had a couple of crushes every semester. But quiet inconsistent ) .Same campus where i felt frustrated a little.And after all the campus which i guess ,has sculpted me ,into a better person will be just memories in my heart from onwards next year.
I hope last year to be more hectic. Seminars and projects . My biggest failure in college is failure to secure good internals.And if projects and seminars like papers are more. And if more marks are supposed to be put as internals , then my life is going to be very hard.
Every one will be again busy to meet their next turning point. Every one will setting their minds to compete again.
Well .. lemme analyze my own mind. After many years . When i'll be reading this blog. I should recollect my feelings and all. I'll tell my minds needs as questions . Better i can classify it into necessary questions and sufficient questions. The questions whose answers, the time only can give . (note : Necessary and sufficient is a condition used in mathematics . Hope i'll remember this later )
Necessary question :
1. Will I get a job?
2. Or will i get an oppurtunity for further studies in some best institution ?
Sufficient question :
1 . Will these friendships remain close even after college life. ?
2. Will i meet my angel in next year ?
Dil chahta hai kabhi na beeten chamkee le din
May god , as he has did till now. Hold my hand in worst times. Keep my light burning in storms....
Nothing to do these days. I thought of writing a whole college story. I can't write it now. One more year there. The best part may be coming on the next year (I'm very optimistic and I'm too lazy to put ma butt over chair to write the whole stuff ). College days are on its climax scenes. The most best experiences of life had occurred in these corridors . But for sure , these corridors won't be ours to find our shelter from next summer's sun stroke . We will change our tag from cetians to alumni..From students to employees. Our college becomes our Alma mater. Class rooms where we made comments during lecturing , the bus bay where i got ragged, the pancharakad where i got birthday bumps ,the campus where i got crush( glup no body knows . . I had a couple of crushes every semester. But quiet inconsistent ) .Same campus where i felt frustrated a little.And after all the campus which i guess ,has sculpted me ,into a better person will be just memories in my heart from onwards next year.
I hope last year to be more hectic. Seminars and projects . My biggest failure in college is failure to secure good internals.And if projects and seminars like papers are more. And if more marks are supposed to be put as internals , then my life is going to be very hard.
Every one will be again busy to meet their next turning point. Every one will setting their minds to compete again.
Well .. lemme analyze my own mind. After many years . When i'll be reading this blog. I should recollect my feelings and all. I'll tell my minds needs as questions . Better i can classify it into necessary questions and sufficient questions. The questions whose answers, the time only can give . (note : Necessary and sufficient is a condition used in mathematics . Hope i'll remember this later )
Necessary question :
1. Will I get a job?
2. Or will i get an oppurtunity for further studies in some best institution ?
Sufficient question :
1 . Will these friendships remain close even after college life. ?
2. Will i meet my angel in next year ?
Dil chahta hai kabhi na beeten chamkee le din
May god , as he has did till now. Hold my hand in worst times. Keep my light burning in storms....
Sunday, March 28, 2010
Farewell Harish brother..
A first year evening :
It was a nice evening. A senior guy came near me and asked - "You dare to add a senior in your orkut . eeh..?" He was asking in a cool way. But my heart was there in my mouth when i came to know that harish i added yesterday is this guy..
I tried to convince - "chetta i never thought that way. I'm sorry . I've got another friend named harish . I thought it was his profile. "
Seeing my nervousness he replied- " But i just don't complained you.. Hmmm just asked .. "
It went ahead with some chori questions and answers . I thought I could have born as a girl. Its awesome even to see how sweetly the senior guys treats little chicks.
In the end he asked -" Do you have money ?"
"yeah a little "
"gimme ".
I gave him 10 rupees and left the place . I thought inside , After all ,this guy is better .He is just insulting me, but not using a single word to insult my poor parents. :) .
Semester 4 : evening in bus -
"Kokarako kokarako ( sound of kozhi )" - Hari sounded .
I asked "What "
Look harish bhai in middle of 10 girls.. My mind said."Times have, for sure ,changed . Raggers have become very friendly ,so even we are able to insult them in public!! ."
Harish Bhai came near us "Eda eda ...pattikeleeee.. I'll be in T Bus "
We told :" Mmmm Mmmmm namukkelam manasilakunnu"
He came near us " Alia ... Maanam kedutharuthu... jeevichu potte";
Inside bus, we teased him very much saying some girls's name and all.
After sastamangalam (This is the place where Hari will leave bus) , the bus won't be having its usual mess at all.. Harish bhai came and sat near me . I just asked :" Anna entiru anna ... evarokke pareenathinte satyavasta enthiraaaanu ".. He just smiled and started a big story . I heard it silently. Some shadows of sadness went through his gestures , expressions and all. Of course most of the guys do have some stuffs like these.glup!! But never have i seen a girl in such a sentimental mess. I heard all those. These kind of small small small sentiments and sorrows should be there in college life. Else what life yaar.. I said while stepping out of college bus.
He smiled and said yeah man ... and kicked ma ass "But you still dont have any thing even to say eh" .. I took a breath and tried to keep the smile as such and told.. "Yeah really ... " .
While i was in train i said my self.. This is the same man who ragged me in the first year. And now turned to be a close macha macha.. Is this phenomena exist some where in the world or is it a unique feature of cet ... Hats off cet for it's unwritten rules ..
Semester 6 : The day before IIT M trip :
IIT M CEA fest always have been a trump card for cetians ,as they can grab prizes easily with out much competition. Its has emerged as an excursion these years, as the romantic couples of college found out the event to be diplomatically most best time to wander with their romantic heroes and heroines .Also as guys never want to loose any chance to visit madras especially as pondicheery is a near place (pondicheri is a union territory with low tax for beverages .. i mean lime juice eh .. ) and also we all had been fascinated by the "not so cold " stories of T nagar and all.
Sreekesh Hari and nishant etc were busy with casting of concrete cubes for testing. It was the day of IIT trip. For testing i could saw a black pulsar roaming inside cet . Harish bhai kindheartedly gave us his vehicle for carrying sample cubes each weighing around 8 to 9 kgs. Black pulsar- Definitely male.. He would be really proud to have such a good pulsar. Some days before he came in bike bay with his pulsar cleaned well . I asked "anna odichu padikan tharao "
He replied "Sorry macha .. just took from service station .. Service kainje ullu.. Randu divasam kaiyette " .
Ovva randeesam kainja angu tharum ..
That evening i said bye to him.. He asked - "Edda sardarji ne ponille IITyil "
i replied - " Ella chetta .. I'm not going now .. appo sheri "
S6 :The day after arrival of IIT Guys
Some messages has already came as train reached palakad (In tamil nadu roaming was there) about the funs they had in iit . I was eagerly chatting with many to know more about the things happened in pitch darkness near OAT . Time was around 8 i guessed. My cell phone flashed . New message Lambran . I opened . I read through the message .I opened my eyes more as a kid and i tried to figure out the words more accurately .
The message was "Harish chettan marichu poi" . I called him and some seniors . Nazreen cheechi told "yeah the thing is true". I remained in chair . I called sreekesh .
I just asked . "Da alia Enthua ithu "
"Ethrrreeeem okke ullu sardareee jeevitham ... Ethinte okke edayilaaanu chila nainte makkal paaarayum kuruttu budhiyumai jeevikkune ...."
" Da enikku viswasikkan pattanilla . Randu divasam munpu kanda angeru "
alian continued " Ente tottu munpil angeerude recordaanu .."
Paranjathu thanne veendum veendum njangal paranju. parachilukalkoduvil padichu ethra paranju padichaalum manasinu manasilaakunna onnalla jeevitham ennu..
I tried to remain calm. but cant . Nishant called . He said "Enthu urappadey oru jeevanullathu ".
Hari called . Aravind called .
Abhijith called. He told Abino one of our school mate now in Tri medical college was there on casuality duty . He got the body . From Id card he recognized him as cetian and called abhijith . I talked and talked and still fought to adjust with reality .Tears never came out of my eyes. But it was hard to believe such a thing. I told mom. She became so upset.
I sat on chair.. School magazine was there on table.. I just turned its pages .
I saw.. Veedanikkilum veedanipikkilum
Venamee snehabhandhangal uuyiyil .
I asked myself
Is these relations a weakness or a strength. The greatest question i've ever met . !!
Among thousands of joyful college memories. one deep cut sorrow.
Lets pray.. Let his soul be in peace ..
It was a nice evening. A senior guy came near me and asked - "You dare to add a senior in your orkut . eeh..?" He was asking in a cool way. But my heart was there in my mouth when i came to know that harish i added yesterday is this guy..
I tried to convince - "chetta i never thought that way. I'm sorry . I've got another friend named harish . I thought it was his profile. "
Seeing my nervousness he replied- " But i just don't complained you.. Hmmm just asked .. "
It went ahead with some chori questions and answers . I thought I could have born as a girl. Its awesome even to see how sweetly the senior guys treats little chicks.
In the end he asked -" Do you have money ?"
"yeah a little "
"gimme ".
I gave him 10 rupees and left the place . I thought inside , After all ,this guy is better .He is just insulting me, but not using a single word to insult my poor parents. :) .
Semester 4 : evening in bus -
"Kokarako kokarako ( sound of kozhi )" - Hari sounded .
I asked "What "
Look harish bhai in middle of 10 girls.. My mind said."Times have, for sure ,changed . Raggers have become very friendly ,so even we are able to insult them in public!! ."
Harish Bhai came near us "Eda eda ...pattikeleeee.. I'll be in T Bus "
We told :" Mmmm Mmmmm namukkelam manasilakunnu"
He came near us " Alia ... Maanam kedutharuthu... jeevichu potte";
Inside bus, we teased him very much saying some girls's name and all.
After sastamangalam (This is the place where Hari will leave bus) , the bus won't be having its usual mess at all.. Harish bhai came and sat near me . I just asked :" Anna entiru anna ... evarokke pareenathinte satyavasta enthiraaaanu ".. He just smiled and started a big story . I heard it silently. Some shadows of sadness went through his gestures , expressions and all. Of course most of the guys do have some stuffs like these.glup!! But never have i seen a girl in such a sentimental mess. I heard all those. These kind of small small small sentiments and sorrows should be there in college life. Else what life yaar.. I said while stepping out of college bus.
He smiled and said yeah man ... and kicked ma ass "But you still dont have any thing even to say eh" .. I took a breath and tried to keep the smile as such and told.. "Yeah really ... " .
While i was in train i said my self.. This is the same man who ragged me in the first year. And now turned to be a close macha macha.. Is this phenomena exist some where in the world or is it a unique feature of cet ... Hats off cet for it's unwritten rules ..
Semester 6 : The day before IIT M trip :
IIT M CEA fest always have been a trump card for cetians ,as they can grab prizes easily with out much competition. Its has emerged as an excursion these years, as the romantic couples of college found out the event to be diplomatically most best time to wander with their romantic heroes and heroines .Also as guys never want to loose any chance to visit madras especially as pondicheery is a near place (pondicheri is a union territory with low tax for beverages .. i mean lime juice eh .. ) and also we all had been fascinated by the "not so cold " stories of T nagar and all.
Sreekesh Hari and nishant etc were busy with casting of concrete cubes for testing. It was the day of IIT trip. For testing i could saw a black pulsar roaming inside cet . Harish bhai kindheartedly gave us his vehicle for carrying sample cubes each weighing around 8 to 9 kgs. Black pulsar- Definitely male.. He would be really proud to have such a good pulsar. Some days before he came in bike bay with his pulsar cleaned well . I asked "anna odichu padikan tharao "
He replied "Sorry macha .. just took from service station .. Service kainje ullu.. Randu divasam kaiyette " .
Ovva randeesam kainja angu tharum ..
That evening i said bye to him.. He asked - "Edda sardarji ne ponille IITyil "
i replied - " Ella chetta .. I'm not going now .. appo sheri "
S6 :The day after arrival of IIT Guys
Some messages has already came as train reached palakad (In tamil nadu roaming was there) about the funs they had in iit . I was eagerly chatting with many to know more about the things happened in pitch darkness near OAT . Time was around 8 i guessed. My cell phone flashed . New message Lambran . I opened . I read through the message .I opened my eyes more as a kid and i tried to figure out the words more accurately .
The message was "Harish chettan marichu poi" . I called him and some seniors . Nazreen cheechi told "yeah the thing is true". I remained in chair . I called sreekesh .
I just asked . "Da alia Enthua ithu "
"Ethrrreeeem okke ullu sardareee jeevitham ... Ethinte okke edayilaaanu chila nainte makkal paaarayum kuruttu budhiyumai jeevikkune ...."
" Da enikku viswasikkan pattanilla . Randu divasam munpu kanda angeru "
alian continued " Ente tottu munpil angeerude recordaanu .."
Paranjathu thanne veendum veendum njangal paranju. parachilukalkoduvil padichu ethra paranju padichaalum manasinu manasilaakunna onnalla jeevitham ennu..
I tried to remain calm. but cant . Nishant called . He said "Enthu urappadey oru jeevanullathu ".
Hari called . Aravind called .
Abhijith called. He told Abino one of our school mate now in Tri medical college was there on casuality duty . He got the body . From Id card he recognized him as cetian and called abhijith . I talked and talked and still fought to adjust with reality .Tears never came out of my eyes. But it was hard to believe such a thing. I told mom. She became so upset.
I sat on chair.. School magazine was there on table.. I just turned its pages .
I saw.. Veedanikkilum veedanipikkilum
Venamee snehabhandhangal uuyiyil .
I asked myself
Is these relations a weakness or a strength. The greatest question i've ever met . !!
Among thousands of joyful college memories. one deep cut sorrow.
Lets pray.. Let his soul be in peace ..
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